Hell Week & The Female Frustration...

It is what it is. Hell week has arrived in the form of piled up assignments and essays and projects. Hell week couldn't arrive on a better note. It's the festive season and I don't have anything to feel festive about. How can I when we all have a lot on our plate??

I'm not panicking. I can't afford to panic. It does kinda suck to have schoolwork interfere with Raya. Seriously though, if I could and if I was allowed to, I'd stay at home and complete everything. Because what is Raya when you have little cause to celebrate?? Okay, besides completing a whole month of fasting --although, I did not get my wish of a full 30 days this year, that's fine-- and restraining yourself to evil influences and clamping down on your desires.

The year hasn't ended but I feel that I've done things that could occupy five years. No, I'm not being sleazy. I'm saying that I've been so booked since the start of the year until now that I've barely caught my breath. This year is so totally different from last year. Ohh, but wait a minute. What the heck did I do last year?? Ahh, that's right. Nothing!!

It has been a tough half-semester because one, the usual people weren't around with me. Lawra, Fidah and Brandon don't take Journalism; they only take CTP so I see them exclusively on Tuesdays together with Nick. The three of them don't get to see Rosz because he doesn't take Public Relations this year. And so during my Journ class, I am surrounded by the guys namely Casper, Nick and Isaac. Rosz sits wherever. I am with these people so much that it's disgusting.

I don't hate them. They're my best gossipers. I can't wholly say they've learnt the art of jotting their bitchiness on my notebook because heck, they're even bitchy without me in their written conversations. Because they're guys, they don't get me. So sometimes I miss the presence of feminity. I'm not that close to Amanda and YY because they've already got each other. Erwayne's with Doris, Jolin and Leslie. So it's like sometimes you need another female to really get what you're saying without being prejudiced or without taking it out of context.

I have been complaining a few times about my loneliness to the guys in my row. They're guys, they don't care. Nick says I stress him out sometimes. Isaac thinks I shirk my presentation duties. Casper is sometimes stuck in his own world.

It's just the lack of a female companion that has me sometimes somewhat frustrated. I mean, can you blame me?? I'm surrounded by the male species who could never understand the female species no matter how hard they try. And I'm not blaming them for not understanding. They're not the only ones. The males in GB are exactly the same.

Let's be real. It's not in their job description to do so. And as much as I'd like to say I'm not alright with that, you know it can't be helped. They are what God molded them to be.

So how do I usually overcome this frustration?? Well, I'd go home after class, log on to MSN and bother the heck out of Fidah and Lawra. In a way, I'm updating them on the group because we're never complete during classes unless we meet for supper.

Oh my God. Does this mean I'm the middle man?? No freakin' way!!

Dang it. I knew being a newsbearer was bad news.

Laterz...
Lenny