What If...

What if...One day I couldn't see.

What if...One day I couldn't hear.

What if...One day I couldn't feel.

What if...One day I couldn't move.

What if...One day I couldn't speak.

What if...One day, I was robbed of one or all of my five senses that have helped me throughout my whole 19 years of living.

I mean, not that I want to it happen, lahh. But, what if.

I don't know what spurred this on, but well, this being the fasting month has opened my mind up a little. What if God really, really void me of all my senses & hold me at a disadvantageous position, would I be able to cope??

Being used to having all my senses literally at the tips of my fingers, would I be able to continue life as I did before?? Difficult it would be, obviously. Already half-blind as I currently am, it's miraculous that God didn't fully take away my sense of sight. Not that I don't appreciate Him for at least granting me a minor percentage of vision. And God can take away that slithering remains of my eyesight just like that, within less than a blink of an eye.

More importantly, what if God decided to take away my life tomorrow?? Am I fully prepared to face the afterlife?? Faith-wise, I am lacking. There's still so much that is required of me that I have not done as an Islam. And what of my family?? Who will lead my sisters, save for my parents??

Hmmm, but I have to wonder, though. Would I be missed in this world when I am gone?? I have been known to make enemies; although I am not shorthanded in the friends department. Of course, my nemesises would be glad to see me go. But will the people whom I've made contact with remember me as me or would they dismiss my former presence as just some girl down the street.

Back to the what-ifs.

Of course, life must go on if either one of my vitals have been taken away from me. Scared of that reality, I am. Would I still be the same person I was inside before I was held at a disadvantage?? Just thinking of losing one or more parts of myself is enough to strike fear in me & send a cold shiver down my spine. I mean, I have to face it. What if I wake up one morning in total darkness but am being told that it was stark daylight??

Or what if I could see the lips of people moving, but no sound comes out?? Getting this off my chest has made me realized not to take life too much for granted; something which I'm sure, many of us do. We forget that we are miniscule nothings compared to The One up above. We forget that He has the power to turn things around, changing our fate anytime.

One minute, we can be sitting comfortably at home & the next, be thrown on to the floor because of an earthquake, one of nature's deadly disasters. We can proclaim all we want about Plate Tectonics, arguing with the smartest of geographical professors on which plate collided with or moved apart from which; but thinking about it, it all boils down to Him.

If, that is, you believe in the Almighty.

What if tomorrow was Judgement Day?? You can't be the judge of this one.

Laterz...
Lenny JC