I feel shitty today.

Incredibly bitchy & mean.

Don't know why. PMS must be on its way.

And then I felt like crying.

I snapped at people, gave the pissy black face; nearly drove all of my friends away. I hated everyone & I hated myself even more.

Didn't feel like doing anything except sulk and sulk all day. But thank God I've got good friends who stuck by me even when I was at my most darkest and meanest and bitchiest and vulgarest most insulting.

Don't know how to continue this thing. I don't like it when I'm shitty. I drive people away without meaning to. I hate it. I hate myself when I'm that way. I'm like a monster unleashed.

Have to control myself & be considerate of those around me. The thing about friends is that they're damn persistent. In a good way.

They'll press and push and shove at you until you give in and eveything comes pouring out. They'll stand by you like the tenacious pugs they are and you can't help but grudgingly lean on them even when you utmost refuse to do it.

Friends.

They're there when you need them.

But they're also there when you don't.

'Coz friends don't leave other friends behind.

They'll pull you along for the ride even when you balk.

Friends.

They're like the sisters & brothers that you can relate to outside of home.

Friends.

F - Forgiving; forgiving you even when you've done the most unforgiving thing in the whole wide world

R - Rock; they'll be the rock that even your own boyfriend/girlfriend can't be

I - Ignitable; they'll ignite a spark in you that you can't experience anywhere else

E - Ebullient; they're ebullient even when you're pissy & bitchy & you can't help but feel happy too

N - Neverending; the friendship they share with you is neverending

D - Ditzy; they're the only ones that you can get ditzy with

S - Sweet; they can be the sweetest thing in your life besides chocolate

To all my friends whom got the black treatment from me today, million apologies from Me.

Laterz...
Lenny JC a.k.a Len Nistelrooy