My University Dilemma

Ohh yes & did I mention that I'm not going to Australia this coming April?? Yup, my plans of exploring the Great Outback have been thwarted. No, it isn't due to parental objections; on contrary, my parents were all out for me going abroad for the Australian Study Tour. Heck, Daddy even suggested I go for both Perth & Melbourne.

It was because when I called in to sign up for the tours, the fella told me they cancelled it!! Why?? Because NOBODY from NYP actually bothered to sign up for it & surprise, sruprise!! I was the only idiot who did. Urrrrrgh!! It was so damn frustrating.

And according to Joseph, the staff on hand, if one wanted to apply for distance learning, it wasn't through IDP. One had to find a company that accommodated to it. How troublesome is that!! Another reason WHY I should not be staying in Singapore.

Penese claims that my motives for going overseas is totally filled with corruption. Being the fact that my aim was 51% to study & the other 49% to immerse myself with cute guys.

*looks at Penese in aghast*

Now, that is sooooo not true. Well, maybe partly true. Okay, FINEEEE!!! She's right!!

Although, it isn't really as bad as it looks. *embarrassed*

But see, the thing is that Mom & Dad hopes in vain that I'd pick out a local university to go to. Something which I find rather distasteful, not because it's got something to do with local but rather the circumstances of the situation.

Coming from a polytechnic, you know you've got your shit cut up for you. Does one really think that the local unis would let an average polytechnic graduate in just like that?? They'd take in all the JC students they can get plus all the distinction poly students before finally landing their eyes on us. And by the time they do that, you can just as well expect a "Sorry, we're full" apology letter from them.

Huh!!

Of course, there's no harm in trying out for their courses & pay a measly ten bucks, but no hopes should be kept up if one wants to avoid direct disappointment.

I still don't understand WHY my parents think I'm able to make to NTU. Baby, child genius I am not. Having grown up with some cousins who were the first in the family to study outside of Singapore as well as to be among one of the cleverer ones, you could say that I was pretty much inspired by them to study abroad. And heck, I was only ten years old then!!

I sure as hell didn't understand why my parents never thought that their firstborn would want to go abroad to further her studies. Really, I can't fathom it.

Not that I'm angry at my parents for it or anything. It's just more of a slight disappointment because they're so wanting to keep me at bay on a slightly short leash. And this, coming from my parents who've travelled the world. Ohh, the irony.

So, no Bunny, I'm not going away for two weeks like I would have. I mean, seriously, what is up with these people?? IDP came down all the way here to give talks on Australian universities & stuff. The least you could do was pretend to be interested. Now, I can't even start on my travel journal!!

Anywayz, I just hope like hell that I'm applicable for an Australian university; my heart would totally shatter if I didn't make it to the university & course of my choice. Yes, I am THAT desperate to get out of here.

And my parents just HAD to announce that we were moving fom Tampines to Pasir Ris during the year of my transition from polytechnic to university. I don't even care about the fact that my new neighbor was one of Singapore's very famous footballers!! I just want to study, is that so much to ask?? Apparently so, methinks. I had to have to worst luck ever. I even posed a question to Mom telling her it's like as if she & Dad didn't want to let me go study overseas, given the situation I was in.

Although Mom reassured me that wasn't the case, indirectly she wasn't answering the question. And that left a niggling feeling at the back of my head. Yeah, I know I've got four other sisters growing up around the house & it would be selfish of me to think only of myself. But, they've still got a long way to go. It's not like they're going to be furthering their studies next year or something. Hell, my second sister has three more years before entering the JC or the Polytechnic.

As you can see, I'm venting out my frustration in this entry in hopes of clearing my head out. It's exasperating how my situation ended like this. I swear, I will NOT stop at just obtaining a diploma. In this day & age, sometimes a diploma is not enough. And it isn't what I would want to use to get myself a job, due to the fact that I'm not interested in my diploma at all!!

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

I am just praying that things will turn out for the better come these few months ahead. And now to cry into my pillow about Alan Smith's injury & Man United's loss to Liverpool for the battle of the FA Cup.

Laterz...
Lenny GodGilla Xabs