Haven't updated for a while; a little lazy, so yeah. Whoa, so fast & it's the 2nd last week of FYP. Gosh, in a blink of an eye, everything just seem to whizz past. My final presentation is being pushed forward to this coming Wednesday, thanks to some dickhead who has to go to Holland for his ass-shit Symphony Orchestra performance. I hope your head gets stuck in the tuba or you suddenly lose your ability to blow a note.

Half of the Fries took off to Bangkok on Thursday & left the other half back here. So sad. I know how it feels like to be 2 people eating together with only each other to look at. We actually wanted to ask Nicolas & Patrick down for lunch with us the next day because we were afraid one of them wouldn't show up in school & the other had to eat alone since that day, Nicolas came late. So, to our relieve, when we came back up to check on them, both of them were together. By the way, Patrick, if saying hello to us seems to terrorize the heck out of you, then we suggest you don't do it anymore. We won't take away your iPod mini even if you don't say it. We're just concerned that you might be thinking we're threatening you that if you don't say hello, we'd take away your newest scandal, which is your iPod mini.

On Thursday, I really appreciated what the little things some people did for me when I was emo. Like the stuffed toy Killer Whale, the Orangina bottle & the Cherry pop given by Michelle, Daffie & Joann. Thanks, so much, guys. I feel like I don't deserve them & that it wasn't for me to always feel emo even though you guys know what it was about. After I heard what happened at lunch that day, I was not only emo, I was pissing mad!! Not at you guys, but at what you had to endure during the whole time at lunch. No one should ever have to go through that kind of rudeness. No one. But, when we were on the way to go outside, something, or rather someone's actions brought my boiling temper down a little. And that someone was Patrick.

He was on his way back to the lab & both of us were at the door at the lift landing. Patrick, as usual, was plugged in with his earphones while I, was ready to kill a certain someone. I didn't expect Patrick to say hello or anything to me & at that moment, I didn't care. But, instead of ignoring me like he usually does, Patrick actually took off his earphones & said a very sincere hello, which touched me very much. It meant so much to me because at that moment I'd already made up my mind that there were no more courteous people in the world. However, Patrick did somehow alter my thoughts & for that Patrick, thank you very much. That was very, very sweet of you. You don't know how much your taking off of earphones meant to me.

And I thought, if HE could take out his earphones for a simple, short hello, then couldn't SHE do it during lunch when everyone was eating?? And, Patrick wasn't even close to me in the first place!! Do you know how rude it is to be listening to your earphones when there's a group of people sitting front of you, eating during lunch?? Didn't your mother ever teach you that?? What, you have no table manners?? No table etiquette?? You are one lucky bitch, you know that?? You had better thank your lucky stars that I wasn't there to witness this nonsense. I would've have yanked off the fucking things & God knows what I'd do next. You think it's cool that you invite your friends to have lunch with you, then abandon them & leave them to fend for themselves while you stick those earphones into your ears & not give a fuck about your surroundings?? Then, you might as well not have invited them at all!!

WE could do well without your cold & rude behaviour. You think by doing that, you want to make us suffer. I'm sorry to say, friend, but I think it's YOU who is suffering more. YOU were the one who wished to suffer, not us. And now, you want to pull us with you so that ALL of us will suffer too?? Oh, puh-leaze!! I'm sorry to say but you are pathetic if you think that way. You ask what happened to everything?? Now I tell you, go & reflect upon yourself. Think hard & think long on the things you've said & done to those around you. You might not know it, but you & your actions may have hurt others in ways you couldn't imagine.

Anywayz, after that incident, even if it didn't happen to me, I was emo almost all the way. Until Xtophe came by, grinning like an idiot, to give me a small cube of chewing gum. Yeah, I know it was only chewing gum, but to see his face was like a breath of fresh air. I felt relieved. Like all the emo-ness I felt just fell away. Maybe it's because I don't see the same people over & over again, so I welcome a change. But I guess I'd feel the same, if someone I hadn't seen for a long time showed up with a pack of sweets. Just letting you know that the gum was greatly appreciated. And yeah, after finding that the gum was so small, greedy me had to ask for another one after he walked away. Ahahahkz!!

Yeah, yeah, I know, greedy me. I had to take the next one myself, though. The delivery service only went around once. Well, actually, I cheated. I came by after I finished blogging my latest entry to take the gum & I said I'd take one. Which I did. But when he wasn't looking, I took another one. Ahahahakz!! Greedy me, ehh?? Shhhh. He's not supposed to know!! Cannot tahan, lah. The gum very nice!! Anywayz, I thanked him; my mouth full with gum & I had to close it with my hand so as not to look too suspiciously puffed up with gum. Of course, he couldn't be bothered to look at me so I guess I was safe. But seriously, thanks for coming by. Even if you were looking goofy. It provided me with a little comic relief. And I appreciate that very much.

So yeah, at the end of that Thursday, my emo-ness was decreased because of the little things done by the people around me. They might not be big gestures, or expensive trinkets, but it was the thought that counted. It reminded me that there were still good people in the world who had feelings, even though there were still some who could be compared to cold, marble statues.

Today, a friend was feeling emo. Me, Daffie, Joann & Khai were outside filling our bottles with cold water when we spotted him standing alone, staring into space at the sky garden. For all the weeks since we'd been here & known him, we had never seen this friend look so troubled, so stressed; in other words, so emo. We observed him for awhile, never seeing him so in turmoil before. And for a moment, when he leaned forward against the metal bars, we thought he was contemplating of jumping down. And we got so worried that we thought he might just do it!! But he turned around with his back facing the bars & all of us could breathe easy again. Personally, never had I seen him looking like that before. He was always the most laid-back, relaxed & the friendliest of all his friends.

We lingered awhile to watch him, making sure that he wouldn't do anything stupid & when he turned to walk back inside, we followed, being careful to make it look like our meeting was coincidental. We met with him at the lift landing & asked him why he was looking that way; like he was going to burst into tears any second. He didn't exactly say why he was feeling & looking that way, but at least he did say he was tired & feeling extremely sleepy because of spending the night hanging on the telephone.

Seeing him in turmoil really tugged on my heartstrings. For me, I couldn't bear to see a friend in hurt or feeling sad. It just makes me feel like I want to make everything all right for him or her. I may not be the most gentlest of comforts but the least I could offer was a solid pillar of support. And maybe some laughter to make it all go away even if it was the shortest period of time. And made him laugh, we did. All of us talked until it was time to go home & marvelled at how fast time flew.

To this friend, I'm not mentioning your name because I don't think it's fair for me to publicize it. You know who you are. I just hope that even if it was temporary, whatever troubles you had were washed away for that period of time even if it was only for a few minutes or seconds. Just so you know that we understand how it feels like. I can only hope that you feel a little better after talking to us & sharing those jokes with us. To tell you the truth, I was a little worried when I saw you standing there alone but I'm relieved that you laughed together with us. Sometimes, it doesn't hurt to share a few tears. It wouldn't make you any less of a man than you already are. And I hope you enjoyed those minutes you spent with us just now. Hopefully, you'll be able to solve the problems that were haunting you just now.

Okay. Moving on.

We finished filming the first half of our production just now. Well, we're still thinking of what scenes we could do to add on to the production. I'll have to send Mada the videos soon so that he can make the compilation. I just hope there'll be enough time for eveything to be done; pics, vids, collages. We want to make it memorable & almost impossible to forget. Maybe tomorrow, we'll video a few more scenes. Thanks, Khai, for helping to be the cameraman. I couldn't have done a better job, myself. It's great how quickly you became comfortable with my camera. I know some of the takes we did were bloopers but I intend to keep them. It makes video-ing much more fun that way. And thank you, Joann, for playing the role of me for awhile. Even though your videos didn't turn out as well as Khai's, it was very nice nonetheless. I know we were interrupted during the shoot, but it's okay. We'll continue probably the rest of the shoot tomorrow. If there are other scenes to re-enact, by God, we will do it.

Thanks, Honeybuns Raizan for visiting me, even though it was short, I still appreciate it. As you all know, I've said time & time again that your visits are greatly appreciated so do come by, yeah?? And Vanessa, too. Sorry for not spending enough time with you, I feel guilty but I do wish that you'll have lunch with me more often. Although you don't talk much, you can still laugh at our jokes, right??

Yes, Khai, the Mocha Freeze was delicious & I DIDN'T get food poisoning after that. Okay?? I know it was a little sneaky, but hell!! The thing was right there in front of me!! What was I supposed to do!!?? Let it rot?? Never mind, I'll do the right thing next time I want to buy a cup. Sheesh...

So, David Beckham's coming to NYP tomorrow!!! Woooooot!! Yeah, me, Daffie & my cousin are going down to City Hall after school too, so as to catch a glimpse of the hunky star. I know he's going to be in my school but come one. What are the chances of me seeing him?? Yeah, I guessed so. Close to none. Bloody hell, I can't find my Beckham water bottle anywhere!! And I SOOOO wanted him to sign it. If I had the chance. Oh well. No worries, I'll just bring another bottle. I guess I'll be sleeping over at Nanny's tomorrow because I can't possibly send Diana home then come home myself. I'll be dead tired!! So yeah, bunking at Kembangan tomorrow. At least it's a little nearer to school than my own house!! WE LOVE YOU, BECKHAM!! YOU'RE THE HUNK OF ALL SOCCER PLAYERS!! No, actually, that's not really true. I could think up of like, a dozen or more soccer players that are hunkier than Beckham. But, who cares!!?? WE LOVE YOU, ANYWAYZ!! Victoria, who?? Ahahahakz!! Good luck to me in meeting Beckham tomorrow!!

Laterz...
Lenny JC