This song has been stuck inside my head the whole day today. It's an old, sappy ballad from the Backstreet Boys taken off their Millenium album called How Did I Fall In Love With You?


How Did I Fall In Love With You

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like sister and brother
We understood we'd never be alone

Those days are gone, now I want you so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
Never meant to feel this way
Don't wanna be alone tonight

What can I do to make you mine?
Fallen so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice and I start to tremble
Brings back the child that I resemble
I cannot pretend that we can still be friends
Don't wanna be alone tonight

What can I do to make you mine?
Fallen so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I wanna say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know
I don't wanna live this life
I don't wanna say goodbye
With you I wanna spend the rest of my life

What can I do to make you mine?
Fallen so hard, so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do to make you mine?
Fallen so hard, so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew
How did I fall in love with you?


Well, the lyrics kinda mean a lot to me because it served to remind me of my previous 'stage' in life when I was in my younger teenage years. I was close friends with this guy who sat next to me with whom everyone started to matchmake with, claiming that we'd make a great couple & all that nonsense. We both took it in stride since we both knew that it was impossible for it to happen. But then, one day, everything just sort of, I don't know, changed. Somehow, somewhat, neither of us could take it anymore & we just drifted apart, each separating ourselves in a world of our own; my world is mine & your world is yours.

It's kinda sad, looking back, because it was the waste of a great friendship. True, maybe in one way or another, I did fall for him; something I hadn't counted on, something that never really hit me until one day it did, right between my eyes. I never would've expected it if it weren't for some of the stuff myother friends were telling me. But then, I guess we never did salvage whatever friendship there was left. It was as if the friendship never happened. Sad, isn't it??

What bonds we built previously have now all been washed away just like that. I hope you know that I never intended to have feelings for you & I hope you know that I'd gladly have that friendship back because it was worth fighting for. I know we were both young & foolish then, but it could ever happen, I'd give anything to get back that solid no strings attached friendship we had; the one that nobody could ever understand because it was just between the both of us.

Eeeeee...I sound so emo. Nahh, I'm not. I just feel a little sad to see us the way we are now. Anywayz, I haven't seen you for a long time & maybe perhaps, you might've forgotten me in some way or another. But just so you know, I've moved on, & whatever time that we had together previously I will always treasure because I've enjoyed every little bit of your company & have no regrets sharing it with you. Just so you know.

Anywayz, we went swimming yesterday for a little while until it rained pretty heavily. Actually, it kinda rained down on us a few times but all those were just drizzles. The last rain however was a total downpour. We weren't badly affected though, because we had our share of swimming & water-playing in the pool. We did handstands in the water & even took a couple of videos & pics of them!! Silly us!! But really, there was this guy whom was all dressed up for swimming & even went to shower before he had a swim. Just as he dived into the pool, pouring rain!! The poor guy only managed to swim one lap before succumbing to the forces of nature. Poor dude. Ahahahakz!!

Anywayz, today I think Nicolas is high on crack. And suddenly the guy whom we thought to be a half-dead nobody became a crazy, waving somebody!! Ahahahakz!! Well, I just raised my arm to wave at him while talking to Romain Louvet. How could I expect him to raise BOTH his arms & start jumping around, waving enthusiastically like as though he's never seen me, Sharon & Romain for 5 freakin' years!! Now, that's crazy. Ahahahahakz!!

Romain Louvet, take it easy, dude, okay?? You nearly smashed my thumb in, man!! Me & Sharon know you're angry, maybe even hurt, but there's a probability that she might feel the same way. Like I was telling you & Sharon, in cases like this, both parties have a share in their faults. Both parties are wrong in some way or another. Like in this proverb, 'It takes 2 hands to clap'. I know maybe you think I'm not the best person to solve relationship problems but seriously, think of it as an outsider's point of view. And even if you can't have her the way you want, don't you think it's better to remain as good friends rather than not be friends at all & just throw the friendship down the drain?? I think if both of you have cleared your misunderstandings, then just proceed to be content with what you have instead of going after something ou can't have at all. All right?? I feel for you, dude. Really, I do. Despite whatever I've said before about you, I still think you're a nice, decent guy who's got loads of plucky courage. And I admire you for that. I really do. That's why I named your confidence as your best asset. Not many guys out there are like you nowadays. It's nice to know that there are guys like you out there. And I'm not saying these words just to make you feel good or just because I think they're nice words. I'm saying this because it's true. It's how I see you...as you. Think of this as a learning experience. For example, say, during your taekwondo training, you fall down. You learn something. If you fall down again, you learn something else. You get me?? Don't worry. If you don't, you can come & ask me anytime. I hope I didn't offend you in any way, I really didn't intend to.

And, damn you, Ingrasciotta for laughing at me during my presentation. If I had turned my head & saw your smirking face, my marks would've been gone for sure because instead of presenting, I'd probably be either laughing at you laughing at me OR I'd be chasing you out of my way. Anywayz, damn you, that blog entry was a joke, okay!! I had nothing better to type in so I though, hey, why not?? But like duhh, I knew you wouldn't want to be caught dead doing something stupid like that just 'cuz you think it's not cool. Dude, like, whatever!! Anyway, I KNEW you read my blog, so don't even try to pretend you don't read, you sneaky donkey. Gotcha!! And Daffie, stop being so gatal okay?? Just because the guy has got a nice name doesn't mean you go gaga over him. *Sighz* I am so disappointed at your betrayal. You call Louvet gatal, but look at you!! Gatal!! Ahahahakz!! What?? Not happy?? Wanna have a run around level 4 again like just now?? Bring it on, gal!! Yeah, yeah, I know. Bitch.

Yes, Luis, I know you can't run very fast because of your 'short' legs. I'm willing to make allowances for you because you're my bestest friend & no one can separate us. Not even during our international training. Now that we've been hearing rumors about Milan Baros & Harry Kewell having to take the boot, both of us can rule the midfield!! It'll just be the two of us, running rampant at Anfield; Xabi Alonso & Luis Garcia: The Dynamic Duo from Spain. Muahahahahakz!!

You know, I just realized something. I've realized that with your presence, as in, meaning the French Fries, life has become much more interesting here during FYP. And it's all thanks to you guys, whether or not you're being an asshole, friendly, unfriendly, serious, joking, irritating, sweet, whatever!! I think without your presence, Block S Level 4 would be as dead as a ghost town & I think we owe it to you guys for making our lives much more bearable. *Salutes the French Fries*

But don't worry, I'm sure we'll be fine even without you around. I mean, come on!! You're only the French Fries. You're not THAT important. After all, you're only human. We've done it before your arrival so I'm pretty sure we'll survive even after you're all gone. But please, do keep in contact, yeah. Ahahahakz!! Okay, actually I'm getting pretty sleepy, which explains my access of nonsensical talk. Okay, whatever. Ignore whatever I just wrote if you think it doesn't deserve reading. Gosh, I gotta get to bed.

Laterz...
Lenny JC