Today, Jan, Van & Such didn't come for lectures. Dang, but I missed them. Thank God there was Michelle. For the first time in this semester, I actually paid attention & took down notes from all lectures. Probably because I want to go on that Laos so badly to pass all my papers.

Mich & I talked about a lot of things today. Actually more of it was about me. Met Mr. Kuan today, again. He keeps looking for me whenever he's got a problem with his piano theory. His daughter is learning it & therefore he feels that he should participate by actually learning what she does. I think it's great for a Dad to do those things. So maybe in the years to come, both father & daughter can understand each other more & share maybe the same stuff; like music.

Mr. Kuan says he'd be more than happy to teach me any Maths that I don't know & I think I might take him up on the offer. Exams are coming soon; just around the coner & I don't know if I'm prepared. Also, I have an event, an SSN one this time where me & Ary, an EXCO from SIT are going to be the MCs. I hope this is the last event for me; I don't know if I've got the time or energy lef for anymore.

Poor Adam & Jan. They're the 2 most miserable being on Earth that I know of. And now, I've just added myself into the club because I too, am miserable. While they're miserable about breaking up -not with each other, though- I'm miserable about being in love & not getting my feelings retuned. *Sigh. It's a very complex thing, this love issue. I don't like it; not one bit. Mich says I've got 3 choices: 1) Tell the fact straight out & nip it in the bud, 2) Wait & see what happens & 3) Go through to someone close to both of us.

I decided option 1 was a no-no because I don't want to be the hunter & I don't want to sound & look like I'm such a cheap flirt & end up making an idiot out of myself. God knows once was enough for me. So I decided to go with option 2 but I wouldn't just plainly wait. Maybe get a little closer or something, I don't know. Take it a step at a time but yet still have a little distance. Adam tells me to forget the whole thing.

I uess just because he's hurt, he doesn't want me to end up the same way too. I'm kinda worried about Adam. He shouldn't have deserved that treatment from his ex. Jan, too. It's so unfair for the other party. I really sympathize with both of them. They're still nursing their broken hearts & I don't know what to do. Heck, who am I kidding? I can't even settle y own problems & here I am trying to figure out others'.

Let's just settle for me being miserable, confused & frustrated & leave it right there. I don't know how it's going to progress because well, it all depends.

Laterz...
Lenny JC